Summer's almost over :(

Well, I've been off work since the 3rd week in July for the summer holidays - and it's been great.

Late nights and late mornings, no stress - no shouts of:

'Where IS your blazer?'....

'WHY didn't you do your bag last night?'....

'What do you mean you don't know where xyx is?'....

'You said you had NO homework yesterday when I asked'....

Just nice relaxed late mornings and catching up with programmes we'd Sky+'d to watch at a later date....Dj has the same sense of humour as me so I tend to set the Sky box to record comedy stuff that Rab doesn't like, then we watch it together whilst Rab's at work.

Today we sat around for a few hours watching 'Mock the Week' (political satire programme) which we both really like - it's doing laid back things like this that make the summer break so relaxing for me.

The time has flown past though, it feels like only last week or so that I was saying 'See you in September then' - and now I'll be back at work this Thursday.

So, I've relaxed and successfully ignored 'c' as much as possible...

I've ignored the nagging pain in my shoulder and the agonising one in my back under my ribs as much as possible...

I've ignored the fact that I can be in bed for 10+ hours and still feel tired when I get up (mind you, it doesn't help that I'm awake so often during the night with the stupid pain in the rib area and shoulder every time I turn over)...

I've refused to acknowledge the dull ache in the area of the original tumour....(well, I've acknowledged it in my head, got up and moved around to ease it off but not given it any public acknowledgement or excessive publicity).....

I'm successfully ignoring the fact that my breathing never did return to normal after the op..this is apparently 'not unusual' but feels pretty unusual to me :)

I've put to the back of my mind (mostly) that my next scan in September (think it's the 19th) is pretty crucial in answering the question about the lung area 'too small to call' spots...

I've done okay really, all things considered...and for that I'm glad that 'c' didn't dominate the whole summer break the way it managed to do last year.

Tomorrow is Dj's birthday - I will do a separate post on that one.....he's so excited and optimistic about what he may (or may not - lol) be getting in the way of presents. It's nice to see because as you get older you forget about that 'excited, optimistic' feeling that you get as a kid. Let's hope it's a happy memorable day for him.

Today he said 'You've had cancer since I've been in double figures'....he's right, he was 10 when I was diagnosed and now he'll be 12...I just hope that his lasting memories of me will not be 'my mum had cancer all through my childhood'....

So tomorrow's about making some memories that involve good stuff :-)

Catch up soon x