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I'm Carole, living in London, happily married and mum to two amazing boys.I was diagnosed with Stage 3 Rectal Cancer in April 2010. Surgery took place in November 2010 and I now have a permanent colostomy...Spinal mets were then diagnosed in October 2011...In January 2012 I was told of further spread to the hip area (multiple lesions)..My life expectancy is now 6-9 months. Walk alongside me on the last part of my experience with this..

Wednesday, 4 January 2012

This really says all that I want to say for now......

Fuck you cancer, you bastard!


  1. Couldn't say it any better myself. Hang in there strong lady, you just may be the one who can kick Cancer`s butt......:-)Hugs

  2. Hi Carole Can only guess what you are going through. I feel so useless. All I can do is send you hugs and good vibes and keep you in my thoughts and prayers

    love stef xxx

  3. Hi Bernie,

    I sincerely hope so, although it's seeming less likely now. However, for now I'm here and life goes on :) xXx


    You're not useless hun, you've had your own battle with this crap and your hugs and good vibes do me the world of good :) xXx

  4. Thinking of you lots Carole, love Alice xx

  5. This is for you cos things are so crappy for you at the moment:


  6. Carole, what an amazing song, I've never heard it before. You're so right - it does say a lot about how you must be feeling right now, and for me, it says a lot about you too - brave, strong, determined, defiant...and (forgive me for saying this because I know how modest you are!) a champion and an inspiration to anyone else who has to face big fears in their life. For so many people around the world, you've achieved this through your honest and beautiful writing on here and the forums - a little London lass with a heart the size of the world. What an impression you've made on so many lives!
    I would so love to smash this bastard disease's head in and carry you away to safety...
    I'm so looking forward to giving you a real hug again soon, but for now, much love coming your way on here as always
    Lisa xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

  7. Hi Carole
    The song says it all.
    Like you so gentle but so tough!
    Warmest regards as always

  8. Alice - thank you xxXxx

    Tony - Yes, I thought you'd like this too xxxx

    Mimi - many thanks for your lovely comment. Tough at times maybe - but I've wavered a little this week for sure.
    Back on track now though :) xxxx

  9. Lisa - can't wait to see you and catch up properly again...I'm so looking forward to it and also you just made me cry with your comment above (not sad tears though)...
    Thank you <3

    Much luv, always xxXxx

  10. Fiona,

    I'm quite lost for words really - you guys have really kept me sane, kept me going and really do understand when I'm 'down' for a few days *why* I'm 'down'.

    I feel honoured by your post for me but I have to say that young lady is way way braver than me and although I've tried my best to help others with this bastard disease, I could never compete with her as she is simply amazing.
    Rab and I watched a programme about her the other evening - lovely girl and so so brave.
    Bastard cancer!

    Thank you Fiona - you also made me cry today xx

  11. @ Shents. You're so right. Carole: a petite woman with the heart and spirit of a thousand lions. And the person I am most humbled by and most proud to call my best friend.

  12. Awww Lou,

    You're all determined to make me cry tonight eh!

    Luv ya loads hun xxXxx

  13. Crying is good for you and, frankly, I doubt you do enough of it.

    Just hope that if I'm ever faced with what you are going through, I'll have a fraction of your dignity and courage.

    Luvin' ya right back! XX

  14. Hi Carole,
    I agree whole heartedly with Shents comments, and Tony's of course.
    You are a strong determined lady and an inspiration to us all.
    I can only imagine how you feel.
    Sending, hubs, positive, vibes, prayers and blessings.
    Carol x