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I'm Carole, living in London, happily married and mum to two amazing boys.I was diagnosed with Stage 3 Rectal Cancer in April 2010. Surgery took place in November 2010 and I now have a permanent colostomy...Spinal mets were then diagnosed in October 2011...In January 2012 I was told of further spread to the hip area (multiple lesions)..My life expectancy is now 6-9 months. Walk alongside me on the last part of my experience with this..

Thursday, 11 August 2011

Lack of updates, murder in my garden, holidays and whatever...

I've not updated for ages now (as so many people have contacted me and pointed out)...

I've not updated because, well because ....ummm because....... I just didn't feel like it.
I ran out of things to say for a while, I wanted a holiday from cancer and all the things associated with it - just for a while I wanted to forget that it matters and I wanted to concentrate on other things...
So, that was what I did.

However, am back now and doing an update...

Firstly my garden - my lovely tomato plants and courgette plant were murdered! Yes, poisoned by someone.

At first Rab thought that it was maybe just co-incidental, maybe the feed I'd used, maybe the weather but I knew it wasn't. Once we dug the roots up he then agreed with me - they had been poisoned...(bleach has been the strongest suspect because of the condition of the central roots)
My plants went from healthy to dead literally overnight...
Healthy tomato plant....

The following day.......

Healthy courgette plant...

Then the following day......

I was SO upset about it at the time. Really disappointed.....I launched a murder inquiry and narrowed it down to one particular suspect - but then remembered something else too, so my suspect list is two people, both neighbours.
I considered kidnap and torture to get them to confess (I AM joking of course!) but then decided to just ignore it and grow some more next year..so that's the plan at the moment.

The rest of my beds are still doing well. My rose bush is thriving, I have a few little Pepper tree's growing happily, three of which have Pepper's growing on them now, all my mint and other herbs are doing well and the flowering plants are now due to flower in the next week or so.

I'll do better next year with the tomatoes and courgettes and might even do some strawberries too :)

I'm keeping on top of the weeding, no small task - and have today started on the front gardens - which are a mass of weeds, stinging nettles and blackberry bushes all overgrown to a silly level. I started today and it'll take probably at least a week to get it all under some type of control. I say a week because I do only what I can, when I can. That's my current project anyway.

I'm on holiday from work until the 1st September and we've been having lazy 'wake up when you like mornings' and late nights.
Dj has been awake most nights really late reading and then not getting up until at least 11am.
I can remember a few years ago when he was up EVERY day by 6am, full of beans and raring to go...how things change as they grow :)
However, no complaints from me as I've always preferred to have lazy laid back mornings once we're off school.

Last week Rab took a week off work and we took my Mum and Dad plus Dj's friend Dan to London Zoo.
We decided to go on the Thursday...bloody hell, what a mistake that was really...the weather on Wednesday was so nice and had been for the previous week or so then Thursday morning turned into torrential downpour time...
It was absolutely POURING down with rain when we got up (tickets already purchased online, non refundable, non transferable - must remember not to do that again)...We delayed for an hour then decided to just go and get on with it.

It did stop raining around 1.30pm whilst we were having lunch so the afternoon was fine walking around but quite a few of the animals had gone into hiding after the excessive rain during the morning. However the boys seemed to really enjoy themselves and Mum and Dad said they did too - so in the end it turned out alright.

Dj took these great pictures below whilst we were there..
They have the 'butterfly house' which is a tent that they keep at tropical temperatures inside and the butterflies fly freely around you - that was really nice.
The zoo lady inside seemed really impressed with the boys who bombarded her with (sensible and intelligent) questions about the lives of butterflies and moths.

These are some of Dj's favourite pictures...worker ants...click on the picture to see the larger version. He found them fascinating and spent ages watching them and taking pictures :)

One of my favourite cats, the Serval below

Like most typical 11/12 year old boys, they found this highly amusing when the Meercat's decided to mate right in front of them....

and to finish up I'll show you this one - just because I think the colours are great

So, apart from all that.... zoo's, gardening etc....I'm still full of aches particularly in the left shoulder and right rib area - which has also spread to more of my central back/spine now as well.
Getting out of bed in the morning and getting mobile is taking longer and longer, it seems that my bones stiffen up during the night and it's really hard to move around for the first half hour or so......
During the night I'm woken every time I move position but the only option is strong painkillers which I really don't want to get into taking regularly until I'm sure of what's going on.
The hospital still haven't written to my GP about the bone referral and my GP won't/can't refer me without that letter.
All they can offer me in the meantime is physiotherapy which I'd rather not do until I've had the scan/x-ray on bones and had a chat to specialist bone man.

I still have the pressure pain when sitting in one position for too long - this is in the original tumour site....
The rectal surgery wound still hasn't healed any further and may or may not now. It's not a problem really I suppose because it's dry and not likely to get infected - just would have been better if it had healed up the way it was supposed to.... But what the hell eh...just have to put up with it for now :)

So just battling on, ignoring things and just trying to enjoy being at home with Dj doing 'stuff' that doesn't relate to bloody cancer....

I'll tell you all about the London riots in another post! :-)

Much luv xxxx


  1. Hi Carole,
    Great to see your post again! Sorry to hear about the 'murdering neighbours!'
    Poor veggies, they were looking so good too! My tomatoes are still green...seem to be taking ages to ripen.
    Sorry to hear that you are still getting pain, and upset for you that you haven't had an appointment come through yet to sort it out.
    Bet that you are pleased to be on holiday at the moment....good to rest.
    Sods law that the heavens open when you have planned a trip out!
    How are you finding work, has become easier over the weeks?
    Good luck with your front garden!
    Don't do too much.
    Bloody riots, we had some here.....only one night of damage in Wolves, but Birmingham was so much worse...the rioters murdered 3 young men for trying to protect their shops....hit and run............
    Take care, hugs and stuff....really pleased that you are blogging again!

  2. Hurray!
    I've missed your news Carole. Knew you were still in town via Facebook but its really great to read your update on the blog.

    Still can't believe those sods that killed your toms and courgettes. Glad you're already planning next years crops. Don't forget peas - they grow really well and are delish as a snack straight from the pod.

    The rain slightly spoiled our 'this is the one thing we want to do in the hols' thing too - the Forbidden Corner in North Yorks. I love being in 'the north' but hate its weather!

    Love Dj's pics. Glad you managed to enjoy the day at the zoo despite the weather.

    Were you one of the task force that was armed with a broom after the riots? I imagined you would've been, and looked out for you on the news. I hope all is well now after a terrifying few days/nights.

    Much love as always,


  3. Hi Carol,
    Thanks for the lovely welcome back - nice to feel missed :-)

    Hopefully you'll get a decent bit of sun soon to ripen up those green tomatoes - failing that I've heard that green chutney is great :)
    Work was okay - 6 hrs a day is plenty though...to be honest they made it easy for me to go back and that is something I so appreciate.

    Catch up soon hun xxxx

  4. Yay Shents :-)

    I try to keep Facebook for 'normal' stuff and keep the 'c' stuff on here mostly...

    I just needed a break from it all whilst I moved home. I no longer live in Limboland, I moved to Da'Nile....LOL
    It's nice here and I'm staying a while :))

    Bloody English weather eh - does really get in the way sometimes. I loved T's video - really good. He's a *great* little character..

    I had your number but managed to delete it..if you're still heading up to London at some point, email me your number again please so we can meet up.

    I didn't do tidying after the riots because to be honest there were more people than shards of glass...SO many people turned out.
    I stuck to trying to make it better *here* (for the murderers!) :-)

    Much luv xxxx

  5. Bloody hell - the size of those moths!! You and Dj are much braver than me if you were in the same enclosed space as those monsters!! Glad you're enjoying your summer holiday. xx

    And Shents is right about fresh, raw peas as a snack. But then I think you know I spend as much of my summers eating as many of them as I possibly can! lol But don't let put you off growing them. Just don't let me near them if you do!!!! xxx

  6. Hi Lou :)

    The moths and butterflies were really lovely, flying freely and it was great in there...you do have to check yourself in the large mirror before you leave though, just in-case any have decided to rest on you :-)

    What about that Serval eh! He was one gorgeous cat indeed - massive version of Diz :)

    I love(d) raw peas - but now they don't really agree with me all the time. Sigh...so much doesn't now :(
    However, I'll still grow them and probably even eat them (just to be awkward)